27.3.05
haywired weather = hayweird temper
hmz..been bit hot tempered recently..need to simmer down...sorry to all whom i shouted at or scolded at....really really didnt mean it..my thousands apologises...
Posted by dotsux at 3/27/2005 11:46:00 pm
me n helyn..hmz..tink i look abit drank..?? haha..=P no lar..its b4 da dnr lehz..
Posted by dotsux at 3/27/2005 01:52:00 am
mm d n d grp pic of dare 05'
Posted by dotsux at 3/27/2005 01:51:00 am
22.3.05
lost 5 bucks...wat a unlucky month...
dunno wat to say...i actually lost 5 bucks 2day....!! arghz...though it mite seems little to u guys..but it meant alot to me can....own sis lots of money...haiz..dun feel like mentioning..some wat related to da last post...haiz..going on hunger strike tis wk le..nid to save lots of money...
d n d was nt bad...got to see lots of "ice cream"..haha...short short dress...REALLY short...went for movie after tat...almost fall aslpt though...
thanks bai for da ride...hehe..he actually went to helyn's place to pick us up...=P had an little incident after tat...which made up all BIT late..but..its ok..haha...gd ting abt having a car..=D
dun really feel tat gd tis month...money's been an issue...been bugging me so tite tat i almost cant breath...bad accounting skills i must say...wat to do...still get to eat..dun worry..nt straving..jus feel so bad owning my sis so much...sorry n thanks...=)
i must say...my hfem proj grp is such a cute bunch..every1 of us snatching stuff to do..haha...=P wat to do..got such grp leader helyn...gt brendan somemore sia..haha..lucky me...
still got QEM n FYP to rush..arghz..!! i really hate tis sem...!!!!!!!!! cant wake up in time also...wat haf i done to u...!!?? y must u treat me like tis..?? give me a break can...!!?? arghz.................
ciaoz...
Posted by dotsux at 3/22/2005 12:58:00 am
19.3.05
im all alone...
im all alone...who is there to support me...?none can i share my woes...none will understand...
making a fool out of myself..
Posted by dotsux at 3/19/2005 12:49:00 am
14.3.05
wat am i going to do..??
wat am i going to do after i grad..? tis question is still going thru my mind everyday...ocs..?? senior tech..?? wso...?? anybody any clue..??
been arrowed to be chairman for rappelling com for affirmation...hmz...seems to be my last major event planning for my entire ncc career...sad sad...hope everyting will be a success...jus presented our very first aop to da heads last sat...not a bad response..showed them footage of our very first trg...demo of all da rappelling tat we're going to demo...haha..tried a new rappelling style on tues also..australian rappel..damn scary sia..wasnt really sure tat i wanna do it when it was my turn..but luckily got 2lt zul 2lt lin 2lt ridwan + da CLTs there to support n guide me along..manage to did it..though its nt tat nice..haha..somewat recalled my very first rappelling experience at asoc 3yrs back...haha...being stuck at da top..struggling...for like i tink at least 15mins till i manage to lower myself down to da ground..n tat was da starting...haha...still very glad tat i took tat very first step..tat lead to all da rappelling demos n performances tat we've done...=D
projs tests reports presentation..nw exams...everyting is coming 1 after another without stopping..really no time to catch a breath...really begining to feel bit stress liaoz...last yr somemore..dunno y...but got tis feeling tat i mite maybe..got a chance to retain..hopefully not...haiz...mite really haf to cheong for exams le..arghz....long time no go blading le.....
lots of peps has been taking driving test recently..congrats to bai...n grass..dun worry k...? try harder next time...n wen min...jia you..!! haha~~
gonna grad soon...feeling happy sad n lost at da same time..happy tat no need to study le..sad coz im gonna miss da gang...lost coz...I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO..!!
any suggustions..??
ciaoz..
Posted by dotsux at 3/14/2005 12:23:00 pm
7.3.05
jus cant slp...
hey...难得 im blogging 2 days in a row...hmz..dunno y....isomnia..(is tis hw u spell it..??) has came back to hunt me...jus cant slp in da nite..its already going to be 3am in da morning n im still here blogging..haha..
lotsa tings been going thru my mind recently..especially wat am i going to do after i grad...always tot i had da plan..ready to be executed..but who knows..im still holding someting back tat till nt..i dunno wat is it...
da moment i close my eyes lying on my bed..questions will start to pour in...wat im i going to do..y aint i studying hard...y cant is my life like tis...?? where is all da time i used to have..where r all da times tat i use to spend..?? sat to me nw is jus resting at home...tats all i wanna do..unlike last time..use to like spending my wkends to da fullest..nt "wasting" time by staying at home n do nuting...use to haf no choice but to stay at home..nw i wish i can jus stay at home n do nuting..crazy gal u mite tink..perhaps sometings r jus meant to be tat way...
hmz..dunno wat im talking abt le....tink im going back to my vampire movie le..haha..lucky made sis to share da vcds wif me..if nt i really dunno wat to do le...oh ya..manage to catch da last part to moulin rouge jus nw...1 of my favs movie..coz got ewan mcgregor..hehe...n i really like tat story...super meaningful..n maybe coz of da tings tat happened when i watched tat show...love da songs in there too...still got da soundtrack wif me...hmz....
yest or rather da day b4..1 of my frenz ask me...iszit becoz u cant forget da past...? or rather am i still holding on to it...? gd question...i told him tat i had already let it go...n i do..i can accept another relationship...but there aint any tat im able to..or rather da feelings is nt there...da msg shldnt had came to me...da 1 b4 christmas...da 1 tat made me tink...tat 1 tat made me realise...perhaps...deep inside me..i do hope tat we still got a chance...?? which i do hope nt..as i jus wanna start afresh..?? reality is...i guess nt...we do nt haf 1.......jus hope tat u r happy rite nw...=)
wat is past...is over.....ciaoz...
Posted by dotsux at 3/07/2005 02:47:00 am
6.3.05
come what may....
Never knew I could feel like thisLike I have never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Posted by dotsux at 3/06/2005 09:33:00 pm
2.3.05
am i missing out anyting...??
been bz wif sch..?? am i..?? haha..or rather been doing sch stuff more recently..hanging out wif poly frenz more...gd ting..?? gd lar..but seems tat been left out somewhere but dunno where..realise..friendship seems to be quite fragile at times..or rather..hard to be lasting..or rather..true friends r really nt easy to get..use to tink if u r true to them...be there for them..try to be understanding..(haf i been...?? i wonder too sometimes...) they will treat u back da same..i guess im really rather naive...i mite seems nt..but tink my close frenz..sisters shld know..im rather naive at times...how i hope i can really live in my own world...haha~
couldnt help but feel tat some gaps r getting bigger n bigger...fren(s) whom i use to go out wif most of da them seems to be bz wif other stuff...nt communicating...attitude change...haiz..
been bit lazy to blog recently...lazy get online also...dunno y...i wish tings were back to normal...i wish........
ciaoz..
p/s: projs n assignments r killers to yr3..!!! hate it.....................